July 9, 2003

1. The most difficult situation I was in today was sitting in the "hot seat" in group this afternoon.
2. The thoughts I had about this situation were what the fuck.
3. At that point, I told myself that this was happening because they care about me.
4. This led me to feel miserable, worthless, depressed, bitter, mournful, humiliated, despondent.
5. Which gave me the urge to run away.
6. The very next thing I did was have a smoke.
7. I wouldn't change it.