July 17, 2003

1. The most difficult situation I was in today was kissing Sandy because I was being pressured into it by my "brothers."
2. The thought I had was why are they embarrassing me?
3. At that point I told myself to hold on & do it.
4. This made me feel embarrassed, annoyed, anxious.
5. This gave me the urge to run away.
6. The very next ting I did was kiss her

Today was an awesome day. I stuck to my schedule & had an amazing visit. Sandy's "little one" called me Dada & Sandy & I kissed. I'm floating on cloud 9.

Gratitude List

• My brothers in recovery
• Sandy
• God's plan for me