Rehab Notebook
The personal writings of being in Rehab for Drugs & Alcohol.
Friday, July 18, 2003
Thursday, July 17, 2003
July 17, 2003
Today was a good day, the best I've had so far. I received many a compliment on my behaviors & playing softball. I was actually quite disappointed when I found out there was not going to be any double-scrub today. Also today I properly followed the chain of command talking with Susan about baseball on Sunday & received a no so I asked Oscar. Stating what Susan said & then asking for his opinion. I feel that I am making leaps & bounds in changing positively. I just need to remember to keep it up & thank God for helping me do it.
Gratitude List
- God's help
- My friends here in recovery
- My parents
Wednesday, July 16, 2003
July 16, 2003
- The most difficult situation I was in today was going up in the front of peers.
- The thoughts I had about that situation were why won't they leave me alone. They're full of shit.
- At that point I told myself that this was happening because they care & they're right.
- This led me to feel sad, guilty, helpless, & hopeful.
- Which gave me the urge to hear them out.
- The very next thing I did was have a smoke.
- I wouldn't change it.
This morning I was frustrated & overwhelmed. But now I have a schedule for tomorrow & I feel much better.
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
July 15, 2003
The most difficult situation I was in today was reading my autobiography.
Monday, July 14, 2003
Sunday, July 13, 2003
July 17, 2003
- The most difficult situation I was in today was kissing Sandy because I was being pressured into it by my "brothers."
- The thought I had was why are they embarrassing me?
- At that point I told myself to hold on & do it.
- This made me feel embarrassed, annoyed, anxious.
- This gave me the urge to run away.
- The very next ting I did was kiss her
Today was an awesome day. I stuck to my schedule & had an amazing visit. Sandy's "little one" called me Dada & Sandy & I kissed. I'm floating on cloud 9.
Gratitude List
- My brothers in recovery
- Sandy
- God's plan for me
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